There are specific reasons why I don’t let people in so easily anymore.
Relationships and friendships are difficult notions to understand; especially as we progress to becoming adults.
When we were teenagers, we all thought that love, friendship and relationship were all as honest as their meanings in our dictionaries. Too bad, life would’ve been a totally different story if everything had its literal meaning, no?
Unfortunately for me, I’ve always had bad luck both ways. I do not wish to say beyond that, but what I can truly say is that after 22 years of living; with endless heartaches from broken friendships and relationships, I am very scarred and shattered deep inside.
I just can’t let anyone in anymore.
And at this very moment, I’m trying hard to purge certain people out of my life. Not because they did anything wrong, but I guess because I’ve let them in too close to me that they have the power to hurt me; and I just can’t allow that to happen for the umpteenth time, right?
Anyhow, I hope everyone else is doing alright and able to trust others. I hope no one becomes like me; because being unable to trust others; and building walls will you pained, scarred and hollow deep inside your soul.