always.

i love this song,but at the moment it isnt what i feel.



I've been here before a few times
And I'm quite aware we're dying
And your hands they shake with goodbyes
And I'll take you back if you'd have me
So here I am I'm trying
So here I am are you ready

Come on let me hold you touch you feel you
Always
Kiss you taste you all night
Always

And I'll miss your laugh your smile
I'll admit I'm wrong if you'd tell me
I'm so sick of fights I hate them
Lets start this again for real

So here I am I'm trying
So here I am are you ready
So here I am I'm trying
So here I am are you ready

Come on let me hold you touch you feel you
Always
Kiss you taste you all night
Always
Come on let me hold you touch you feel you
Always
Kiss you taste you all night
Always

I've been here before a few times
And I'm quite aware we're dying

Come on let me hold you touch you feel you
Always
Kiss you taste you all night
Always
Come on let me hold you touch you feel you
Always
Kiss you taste you all night
Always
Always
Always

whats the rush?

i dont understand how people search for so-called love.

its crazy.how do u actually find love?
u cant really FIND it.
it just happens.

to people who INSIST on looking for it,i have to just ask WHY?
it only makes u feel sad and somehow the pain is GREATER than the happy times.

like now.
and the way its always been.

its painful.

when he's sad,u have to comfort him.
when he's down,u have to pick him up.
when he cries,u have to help him stop.

but what if u were the one going through all that?

i doubt that he'll tell u everything is going to be alright.
and it hurts even more when he leaves u to cry all alone the entire night,while he sleeps soundly till dawn breaks.

id rather live alone than feel all those feelings piercing through my veins

**let it go,let it go.**

~benci bila dia buat macam tu.!

:(

why?

at times,i feel that being in love is the best feeling in the whole wide world.

at times,i feel like love is overrated,and that it hurts more than it soothes.

i dont know.maybe the situations are different.

at this very moment,i cant feel my heart beating.i feel numb all over.am i too imperfect for anyone?why is it that everytime we fight,ill always be the one to be blamed,to always be the one who would cause problems?why?

i know.im not destined to be loved by anyone.

not even him.

**sigh**.

here we go again.

another lonely holiday with nothing more than sleepless nights and tears to give warmth to the broken heart.

i so give up.
i know he has given up on us.

maybe this is how its supposed to be.
i shouldve seen it coming.

happy endings are not real.
so i have been living in denial since forever then. :(

its so painful.i wished id never fallen in love from the start;to have never felt the pleasure of having someone take care of ur heart only to feel him break it to million pieces;making a huge mess out of everything.

picking every piece of it is hard enough,let alone trying to complete the puzzle that can never be once again perfect.

gosh.
i never knew it could get in too deep.
i never knew it could hurt this hard.
i never knew it could make u cry this much.

now?
i have to toughen up,stop hoping and move on.

how is that possible when ive done so many things with him?
how is that possible when we've shared so many memories together?memories that can never be re-lived again with anyone else but him?with feelings so right and the whole day so perfect,u just wouldnt want the day to end?how?HOW?

i hate this feeling.its been ages since i last felt this way.

so yeah.

here we go again.

but this time,its the last time.

if it ends,then it ends.

i can only cry and try to move on with my life.

disco lights,high-heels and prada clutches.

lets PARTAYYYY~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

finally done

sukanya exam sudah habis!

now kena risau pasal results pula.

smile for me

this was back in july 08,when we were nothing more than just strangers to each other.






to THIS,so very NOW-ish





at times,ur like a pain in the arse.NO!THE PAIN in the arse.and the neck.and EVERYWHERE else.

at times,ur like the friend ive never had,the person i could talk to when no other human being understands my situation.

but ur EVERYTIME my one and only.

=)

i cant wait for tomorrow.

CHEMISTRY AND MATHEMATICS;im gonna start doing EVERYTHING.

i feel so motivated,and im in love with everything now.

the clouds are now gone,and the tears are all now gone.

God,please just let me be now;please just bless my life with happiness;erase my grudges and my pain.

please do.

i dont want to hurt you anymore;neither do i wanna get bruised by you.

i heart you in the picture.

but come to think about it,

i LOVE you so VERY much.


and CHEMISTRY.and cikgu azmi =)
and math;cikgu salizah
and PHYSICS;cikgu harlina.

help me

this is a cry for help.im going through a very bad time now.my mom doesnt understand.my boyfriend does not understand.my friends are all being drama queens and friggin bitches.my body is betraying me.my mind is not functioning.im not progressing.i need help.i need more than just help.i need so much more than everything.time is running out.im already left out behind.how am i supposed to get back up when ive fallen so deep?i need to talk to someone but who to?im trying to move on but something is holding me back.please help.i just cant get back up.ive lost hope.im having doubts about myself.i cant do so many things.i cant progress.i cant.i need help.i need so much of it.so so much of it.